i think that
20 years from now
i´ll be thinking of you.
that one great love of my life that i let go
the one who held me during the nights i couldn´t close my eyes and let myself fall asleep.
the one who danced with me in my dreams
the one i´d mother children for.
the one i´d move across the world for.
i wonder if
i´ll still regret it
that day i said we should maybe part ways because i felt like there were other adventures out there for me
when, truly, the most beautiful adventure you can have in life is to be so purely, completely, incadescently loved
just how you loved me.
but don´t get this wrong.
i loved you too.
i loved you like i have never loved before. and i still do.
i love you as if i was a sunflower and you were the sun.
it doesn´t matter where you are — i will turn to you
and admire your greatness, even from afar.
i could see forever with you. and it hurts so incredibly much.
it hurts because i still do. but i know i am losing you.
slowly, you´ll stop looking for me in every girl you meet
while i am cursed to wait for our love once again,
hoping someone makes me laugh like you do
hoping someone looks at me as if i was soft and treat me as such
take care of me just as much as i take care of you.
did you know you are the only person i feel at home with?
i never felt like i belonged until my life was intertwined with yours
i was intertwined with you
my existence began when you arrived.
this probably sounds weird but it´s true.
i promised i´d always be true and that´s what i´m trying to do.
you´re the one. i know that.
i might be young and not know where life will take me,
but i know this.
and i know us.
and i hope life will take us down the same road again.
i don´t want any path that doesn´t have you in it.
maybe this is a selfish idea i have of love — but i can´t let you go.
because if i do, i wonder if i´ll ever love again.
i know i have a great heart and i am capable of giving an ethereal love
but only you deserve it. only you only you.
it´ll always be you just as much as it´s always been you. only you.
my one great love.
